Blogging into the empty space of the internet

Ok, I realize that I don't post too much at the moment and, I'm certainly not as prolific as other bloggers. So far, no one has looked at my blog. So here I am blogging into empty space of the internet... Is anyone out there? Is anyone looking here at all? I just looked at my stats... it's not encouraging. Well, anyway I did come on here tonight to actually blog, and not just complain. So here's the deal. I spoke with a friend this evening that I haven't talked to in a while. We were in group therapy together back in the day. The group fell apart and most of us had lost contact with each other. So we had a very nice conversation and in this conversation she mentioned a Trans specific club that we've both been to out in "the valley". Now, I've never been too fond of this club, but it served it's purpose for the times. Don't get me wrong, there are a lot of nice people there. When I first started to go there, it was a nice experience. I met a lot of very nice people and a lot of creepy people. This is back when I wasn't full time yet, and I had a yearning to be around other TG and CD people. It made me feel welcome an like a normal person, it was sooo nice to be around others like myself. Then, I transitioned. I became full time living in my chosen gender as a woman. As time went on, I became even less enamored by this place. It seems that I no longer needed to go there. I think I've mentioned that I don't have any problems passing. The only strange looks I get are from people looking at my tattoos. (They're visible on my arms and I have quite a few of them.) So I found that I'm much more comfortable around regular people, in regular places like Starbucks for example. I've been to this club recently when my friend dragged me there, and I was bored out of my skull. I just don't seem to have a whole lot in common with the people there. I'm sorry to say that, but it's true. Way back when, in group, the moderator mentioned that she hadn't been to a trans club in a number of years and that when she did go again, she was uncomfortable being around other trans people. At the time I wondered why. Now I know why. As you move through the "normal" world, and discover people and places, the need to be around other trans people, kind of falls away. I'm not sure why this is. My conversation with my friend confirmed those thoughts. I think that places like the club in the valley serve a very specific need, especially for newbies, cross dressers, and those trans people who aren't out or full time. It's a great place, I think, if you fall somewhere in those categories. Of course, this is just my opinion and my own experience.